We’re already in February, a good month and a bit into the new year, and I’m starting to feel like I’m making a little progress with this “positive music” trial. It’s been very difficult, but I feel like I’m learning a lot of new things about the power and influence of music on my life, and the role it can play in my mood and attitude.
The biggest challenge I’ve been taking on is attempting to give “CCM” (aka Contemporary Christian Music) a fair shake, and an opportunity to take a role in my life. Like any other guy who was raised listening to a lot of rock and experimental music, I find some of it tepid from a “listening experience” point of view, and at times embarrassed by the lame prose and poetry some of these songs employ.
“Christian music” is a very complicated idea or concept. That is, it’s a broad term that can apply to a number of very different forms where the common denominator is Christ himself. For example, there’s “Ministry Music,” which are the kinds of songs sung in churches by worship leaders and congregations, and there’s the “Christian Pop,” which is like Ministry Music, but is less about being congregational and more slick like pop music. There’s “Don’t Call Us” Christian rock (Christians in a band, but not a “Christian Band”, which is music made by Christian musicians, sometimes on Christian labels, and sounds like mainstream rock music, usually with ambiguous lyrics that could be interpreted to have Christian content (think Switchfoot or Lifehouse). And finally “Cool Christian” music, which almost doesn’t exist at all, but artistically speaking, is a high-point in art, which earns high praise from critics and popularity from all corners, with a healthy mix of Christian content and skepticism. Many Don’t-Call-Us musicians aspire to have “Cool Christian” success, but it’s only the most freakishly talented that earn this acclaim: i.e. Sufjan Stevens, David Bazan, and in my opinion, The Daredevil Christopher Wright.
To explain how these all kind of fit together, consider the term “cool.” Essentially, cool is that unattainable quality of being compelling and stimulating, without the appearance of effort or engagement or earnestness. Miles Davis was cool. Joy Division was cool. The Ramones were cool. Red Kross was cool. Basically being cool means not caring about being cool. Cool is disengagement, or at least, the appearance of being disengaged. (Wikipedia: Cool)
Christian music isn’t cool.
And that’s okay.
Every so often a “Cool Christian” artist comes along, and in itself, that is an amazing and miraculous thing. I’m willing to accept that this pokes a pretty big hole in my Christian music theory. Regardless, Christianity in itself is not a “cool” medium: it is usually earnest, passionate and emotional, and is overall not condusive to “cool.” The Gospel is a simple message of truth: however, simplicity and truth are not “cool” values.
That’s not to say Christians don’t try to make it cool: Take a look at the Mars Hill/Rob Bell type movements happening across the globe, with their sometimes-emergent approach to church and worship. Interesting to note: these types of Churches are usually only popular in stereotypically unsophisticated suburban centres and not in cool urban areas where artists usually locate themselves. Is “cool” church uncool? (Yes)
So if we accept that Christianity by itself is not cool, and by extension the Church isn’t cool, then “Ministry Music,” the Christian music that dwells in Christian sanctuaries, can’t be cool. It has to be. If only on a utilitarian level, it has to be music that can be sung communally by singers of all talents, and has to have a broad accessibility. At times, passionate, while also provoking a passionate response. Simple music and melody played by a mixture of musicians from a variety of backgrounds, with mostly amateur, weekend-warrior levels of skill.
Ministry Music can be amazing and powerful, and it will never be cool, no matter how much some people want that to change, no matter how many U2 or Coldplay-esque effects or riffs are thrown in. (And yes, I believe U2 and Coldplay are not cool). Ministry Music is a difficult aspect of Church life, and at times is given a too-high value in Church communities (even if we call it praise and worship).
The thing is, I don’t necessarily want to listen to Ministry Music all the time: While I do love to worship God, I also want to be stimulated and well, swayed by the cool. In the past, I’ve lumped all Christian music into the same un-cool category, and focused all of my listening (and creative) efforts on “cool” music. I’ve never thought I had a problem with being exposed to non-Christian content, but as I examine and challenge my own identity, one change I have to make to myself is allow my identity to appreciate and understand Christian music.
In short, I need to find a way to let Christ and Christian content dominate my life, because frankly, the world robs me of my enthusiasm and love, and I need to be continually reminded of God and his presence and direction in my life. So I’ve been trying to find a way to let Christ dominate my music-life, with a healthy dose of other “positive” music rounding it out.
So here’s how it lays out for me: I’ll still listen to the “Cool Christians,” and if at all possible, I won’t waste my time with the “Don’t-Call-Us-Christian-Band” imitation rock like Mutemath (I apologize to my readers who love Mutemath, but if you know me, you know that you shouldn’t take it personally… If you like it, that’s all that matters). “Ministry Music” is amazing in Church, but it’s hard to listen to on it’s own merit… however, that is the music I need more of in my life, so I need to find “Christian Pop” that is not too slick and overproduced for the masses, yet positive enough for encouragement and gritty and interesting enough to have my tastes placated.
It’s a tall order, but so far I’ve found a few releases which I think stand up to my pretty demanding criteria. You might have already read about Scandinavian Metal Praise, which is my first real find in terms of great Christian music, but I really should tell you about the music that has given me the most encouragement and inspiration in the past month: Matt Maher and his record, “Alive Again.”
I first discovered Maher when I was looking for new and interesting worship songs, when he appeared on a YouTube Christian Cafe type show, where he taught a song called “Lay it Down,” from his album “Empty and Beautiful.” I didn’t particularly love that record because it was a little too overproduced and it didn’t speak to me lyrically, but that song stands out as a high point, and we’ve enjoyed singing it together at Grace Toronto Church.
But thanks to my S.O., who heard a song from Maher’s new record, managed to figure out iTunes for the first time, bought the album, and put it on her own iPhone. I never gave it a close listen, and it was only until after I started my “positive music” project that I gave it a second look.
If there was ever an opportunity to point to God’s providence in my life, it is evidence in the album “Alive Again” crossing my path at the most absolutely perfect time. I don’t know if Maher has ever experienced anxiety and depression like I have, but the lyrics all over “Alive Again” address the kinds of feelings and doubts I have been feeling, while also reminded me of the purpose and perspective and God’s own promises.
Here’s a look at the lyrics from the album’s title track:
I woke up in darkness
surrounded by silence
oh where, where have I gone?
I woke to reality
losing its grip on me
oh where, where have I gone?Cause I can see the light
before I see the sunriseYou called and you shouted
broke through my deafness
now I’m breathing in
and breathing out
I’m alive again!You shattered my darkness
washed away my blindness
now I’m breathing in
and breathing out
I’m alive again!Late have I loved you,
you waited for me,
I searched for you…
what took me so long?I was looking outside
as if love would ever want to hide
I’m finding I was wrongCause I can feel the wind
before it hits my skinCause I want you!
Yes, I want you,
I need you
And I’ll do what ever I have to
Just to get through
cause I love you
Yeah, I love you!
Or there’s another verse on “Sing over your Children,” which again speaks directly to my own predicament:
I flirt with the world,
It steals my love for you.
My fear grips my faith,
And I am left unmoved.
I could go on and on and on like this with every song. It speaks to me so profoundly, that I can’t seem to go a day without listening to it: I often start it up while waiting for my bus in the morning, just to help me get my head on straight for the day, and place a right attitude in my heart. At the same time, I have to comment that I also LOVE the guitar sounds on this record, which is very uncommon on “Christian Music” records, which is just another bonus to this album, and allows me to love it all the more.
The fact that God has provided this music to me, through the talent of Matt Maher, I am so thankful for this piece of encouragement, and it is helping to enlighten me as I fight against my own personal “stubborn darkness.” I hope to someday be a musician as full of life and the spirit as Maher, no matter how “un-cool” that makes me.
So please, if you are in my position, or don’t listen to much Christian music (and wish you did), try starting here! I hope you get as much out of it as I did.


